I just realized I live in constant fear. CONSTANT FEAR. It never leaves. I can't sleep because I worry. I can't eat, because my stomach is a size of a tennis ball. I can't cry to get the fear out of me. It just is. It stays. Never leaves.
As I was thinking today, I froze in one moment. One thought came to me. One terrifying thought.
IT WILL NEVER BE BETTER.
My life won't get any easier. I won't stop worrying. My family will not miraculously heal itself. The prince on a white horse will not come to save me. Life will go on with a load of unbearable burden.
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Monday, March 5, 2012
Freedom step #1
Last week my parents - Mr. & Mrs. T - left to America.
[loud sigh!]
What will I do? What will I do? What will I do?
I keep telling myself I have to grow up now. Really quick. So I close my eyes and I imagine myself letting them GO...
It is my FREEDOM STEP number 1.
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