I just realized I live in constant fear. CONSTANT FEAR. It never leaves. I can't sleep because I worry. I can't eat, because my stomach is a size of a tennis ball. I can't cry to get the fear out of me. It just is. It stays. Never leaves.
As I was thinking today, I froze in one moment. One thought came to me. One terrifying thought.
IT WILL NEVER BE BETTER.
My life won't get any easier. I won't stop worrying. My family will not miraculously heal itself. The prince on a white horse will not come to save me. Life will go on with a load of unbearable burden.
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